WOO! I am back at school. This summer went by very quickly. And it was a friggen rollercoaster. Good to bad to great to very bad in my love life. But having no significant other is probably better for me at this point in time. I have way too many other things I want to do that need my energy. Grades so I get into grad school, sucking up to my supervisors, community service, maybe some student government and most of all making new friends. Which seems to already be going great! I'm having so much fun here at school. I know I was super negative about it the week or so before I left. But so far, no complaints. Especially not about my room, which, as Anthony put it, is a palace. I never want to leave it, it's so nice. I bought awesome posters and made it super cozy.

I have soooooo many hours at Com Col this semester. Which means lots of money. Not so much free time during the day, but what do I really do then anyways? Yeah. Play puzzle games online.

One more thing before I end my lovely entry. My 21st birthday is Friday, September 19th. Fun things will be going on here in lovely Amherst that night. Dinner, maybe bowling, maybe a movie, or whatever I can come up with that is creative and original. So if you are coming, you should let me know. I want to go somewhere nice for dinner, so reservations will be required. Email or leave me a message or something if you can come. Also if you have any ideas of what I should do (besides drinking... duh) tell me some of those too.

Time for super awesome movie night here in 103 Butterfield! Over and out!

Just wanted to update to let you all know that I'm still alive. You know how I always say I only update when I'm depressed? Well, obviously, I'm not. I was, but no longer. Things are great and I'm going to have an awesome summer! Sean is the awesomest boy evar!

But obviously, I didn't get off my lazy ass just to ramble about how great life is. I'm having a cookout this Saturday at my house. I want lots of peoples to come. There will be swimming, good grilled stuffs, and maybe even some cookies! So if you want to come or whatever, let me know. I want some sort of number so I know how much stuff to buy. And if your a crazy veggie eater, let me know. I'll buy some shitty gardenburgers for you. And probably make fun of you. So please come!

Time for working. I rock at the order entry!

I got a job! Yay! Order entry at Chadwick's of Boston. Huge building with a cafeteria and everything. I get a name badge with my picture on it and everything! And if I enter lots and lots of orders, I get a raise!

I got new furniture too. It hasn't come yet, but it's super nice. I also got a futon, which is already here, and is super comfortable.

I feel like no one wants to bother to hang out with me. I left a message with Chris saying to call me if he wanted to hang out, but he didn't. And it made me sad. And I guess Anthony and Jaimee were around North Attleboro this weekend, and they didn't even bother to call me. And lots of other people haven't bothered to even get in contact with me. And stupid Lee worked all weekend. But at least he'll have money. He should take me out some place nice. Since I've been so generous and caring all school year and done so many nice things for him... Hint hint.

I beat Wario Wares on my GBA. I still have a few more things to unlock. But I will move on to Yoshi's Island next. YAY!

Hey d00derz. I'm home. I got laid off. On the job hunt. Might be delivering pizzas for some Greek guy. Script of that experience is forthcoming.

I'm in a rut right now. Really trying to get out and be my normal happy and spazzy self, trying really hard. Just bear with me. And give me love! :P Lee, thanks for being so wonderful and understanding and just super awesome and great! Being with you yesterday has already made me feel so much better. And thanks to everyone else who has talked to me and made me cheer up. I want a fun summer, so I'm determined.

So I'm going to take all this free unemployment time, which I haven't had in... never. I want to go to Boston and have a picnic on the Common. I want to go to the Cape. All sorts of places.

Just trying to kill some time before going to bed. I feel like I haven't really talked to many people lately. Things are good. Just finished my last Phonetics presentation. Great feeling. Now I just need to study my ass off for the test on Thursday. Lee was here this weekend. It was fun. I am the best girlfriend ever for helping him with his project!

Reading this one post on SA has made me really sad. I can not imagine losing your viriginity to someone you haven't even kissed yet. Or losing your virginity in a gas station. Or having sex with someone whose name you don't even know! My romantic ideals seem to be fading a bit, but not that much!

Figuring out class schedule for next year. I always get into one of those "I CAN DO ANYTHING" moods at this time. I should really stop that. It screws up my GPA. I'm thinking of trying to finish school a semester early, so I can work and stuff before starting grad school the following fall. But I'm worried it will burn me out. Must talk to an advisor about that.

HEY LEE! IT'S BEEN OVER A WEEK SINCE YOUR LAST UPDATE! UPDATED ALMOST DAILY?! HAH! LYING SACK OF SHIT! I AM SOOOOOO WINNING THE BLOG WAR!

Maintenance guys are "fixing" my ceiling. Some lady came in and cleaned my carpet. My room smells almost normal for the first time since I moved in here. But not quite normal. I can still smell the water damage. However, the guys fixing the ceiling came in and took the panel off, played with it for a little bit, then left. Didn't say when they were coming back. The panel is just sitting outside my door. And I have no clue what's going on. Oh well.

Got an A on my Jane Eyre paper! Yay! Now I just need to get through this Physics test. I should be OK. And I need to write the Dean's Book Review revision. I think I may do that now to get it done and over with. God I hate that class so much.

Going to a semi-formal-banquet-type-thing. I get to wear a pretty dress! Now I just need to figure out how to do my hair... Hmmm...

And finally... LEE'S BLOG SUCKS DONKEY BALLS! AMY'S BLOG RULES!

Should be transcribing my homework for Phonetics, but I have a splitting headache. So I'll fill you all in on my weekend of fun!

I went to RPI to visit Lee this weekend. I got there and we went to the mall. I never get tired of going to the Crossgates Mall. It's got a lot of stuff in it. I bought a new webcam which I will be attempting to set up right after I finish writing this update. Then we went to the frat house and watched people play beer pong. Twas lots of fun. Went to this crazy frat party across campus. I had to experience at least one in my life. Suffice to say, I don't think I want to be experiencing another one like that any time soon. It was hot and incredibly crowded. But filled with skanky girls. Who I laughed at.

Went to sleep, got beaten up in my sleep. Woke up and laid around lazy, very fun. Then we went to eat and I got french toast. Yummy, but I wasn't feeling well so I gave most of it to Lee the human trash compactor.

At this point we both realized we were very smelly, so we went back to the dorm and took showers. After completing that task, we drove down to the frat house, where I parked my car apparantly sort of in front of someone's driveway. More about that later!

Went in to the house and while there was some strange creepy ceremony thing in the attic, I sat and watched Trading Spaces with the rest of the girlfriends. After the creepy ritual, there was lots of drinking. I decided to try my hand at beer pong. I think I did pretty well. That game is so much fun! But maybe I am just amused too easily. I sunk 5 shots, while Lee only made 2. We were a team, so it didn't really matter too much, but I am so awesome! We still lost, even though I am great. Then I got sick. Booooooo. Due to the fact that I hadn't eaten anything all day. So I ate some pizza and felt much better. After all this fun, we walked back up to the dorm, leaving my car there.

Return the next afternoon. Hmmm. Where is the car? OH NOS! IT HAS BEEN TOWED! AMY IS STOOPID! Luckily Lee took care of me for the second time this weekend and called all the right places and found my car. So we went and picked it up. ONE HUNDRED AND EIGHT DOLLARS! I don't think I'll be going out to eat any time soon. I need to recoop the loses for being such a stupidhead. My parents are all angry. But it was a mistake. Whatever, the battle with parents continues to go on over every single aspect of my life.

I really feel like I've tried everything. I show my responsibility and intelligence on a daily basis. Yet they continue to try and control every bit of my life by nagging and making it seem like I would be lost without them. Which I probably would be, in some respects. But I don't need them to tell me when to study and when to sleep, and if I should go some place. I hate having to resort to the theatrics, (crying about how I'm treated) but it seems to be the only thing that gets them off my back. Anyone with suggestions, please let me know, because I have no clue what to do.

Anyways, even though I puked and lost 100 dollars this weekend, I still had lots of fun! Got to wear my new purchase. It was enjoyed! Now I must conquer the new webcam. Or maybe just be a lazy fuck and go to sleep. NIGHT NIGHT!

Got back to Amherst today. Being home was nice, but I want to get this semester over. I also want to see all my friends up here. I have work that I should be doing, but I have a day, right?

Karaoke on Friday was super fun. I got to sing all my lounge singer songs that I LOVE. And they had new songs since I went last time. Like sk8r boi! OMG! I had to sing it! So I did and it was great and I felt stupider just for uttering the lyrics.

I already broke my no meat on Fridays thing. And it's all Lee's fault! Oh well. I don't think I really felt that strongly about it anyways. I should just go to church.

I can't stop watching this war stuff on CNN. I watched way too much while I was home. At one point I fell asleep around 9. I woke up again and they were talking about the same thing. I went downstairs to use the bathroom and was really confused by the fact that everyone was asleep. It was only 9, right? No, it was midnight. And they were talking about the same irrelevant shit. This whole war is giving me a very unsettled feeling. I know we need to remove Hussein, and I support the effort now that we are over there. But the way the media is covering every single development in the war makes me scared. Because they magnify every death or struggle the military has. I guess I'm just overly sensitive.

I've been thinking about the quality and content of my blog entries lately. I wish I put more of what I'm thinking about in them than what I've been doing. And I only seem to write about negative thoughts when I have them. Like all my OMG sooo angsty posts from last month. I just find it so hard to write about my happy thoughts. I just feel so silly. But I guess I should give it a try.

I'm content right now. School work is making me feel accomplished and smart. My relationship is going very smoothly and making my views on many things change based on what I'm feeling. Like my views on sex. Before keeping my virginity was never a question. It was what I wanted to do. Or what I thought I wanted to do. I think maybe my "no sex until marriage" was not so much a religiously moral issue as it was a fear issue. I think I try to be religious and pious just for the sake of being identified as that. More than anything, I'm scared of sex. And now that I've put it on a pedestal, that makes it even scarier. Maybe I should just get over that. It's just not as important as it used to be to keep my virginity. Who knows why.

Yeah. So. I'm creepy and I probably just scared off all of my readers. GOOD! Now I can make fun of all of them like I have always wanted to do!

Going to see Chicago for the 4th time. I am such a loser!

I've decided I am going to attempt to be a good Catholic this Lent. I say this every year, and I know it never works. I either half ass it, by giving up something I don't really like. Or, I cheat. I'm having trouble deciding what to give up. Perhaps I will stop biting on my nails. But I barely do that. Or maybe I should give up soda. Now that would be torture. And we know torture makes Jesus love me! But I have six cans left in my fridge. Hmmmm.

I've also decided I will not eat meat on Fridays. I think I've actually managed to follow through with this. A shock to many, as I have been known to yell "MEEEEEEEEAT" whenever I go out to dinner.

Anyways, life is good. Got an A on my Russian presentation and I did well on my test in Phonetics. I feel smart again! I was seriously doubting myself. I thought UMass had sucked the smart right out of me.

Tomorrow is Dan's party. Yay! I haven't seen people, especially Dan, in a long time, so it will be nice to see them all again.

I may be working with special needs students this summer. Hoping for some good stories and good experience.

Everyone should come to my concert next week. If you don't, I will "cut off your head and piss down your throat."(thank you Jason for that glorious threat)